Days in and days out.
There are times when I feel I am of no worth. I feel like I am nobody and I keep doubting my existence. There are times when I feel people talk to me because they have some work from me and will leave when the work gets completed. There are days when I just want to lie on the bed lifeless and cry my heart out. There are days where I feel like killing myself and once and for all deleting myself from this world. Sometimes the pain overtakes our willpower, our dreams, our happiness, ourselves as well. But then there are days when I wake up with this power where I can conquer the whole world. There are days where I am calmer and still. There are days when I feel and know that I am worth whatever I am today. This pain makes me realize I am alive; this pain gives me this unknown power or strength to fight over it once again. I know I have tried 1000 times to kill myself but now just once only for once I will live, the way I wanted to and want it to. Maybe killing myself be worth but losing without trying is not my thing. I have this zeal to be worthy enough. I'll tell the world I am not a loser, maybe I am not the winner now but someday I will be the achiever and achieve what I wanted to. When someone from my back asked me what I am, as my profession I couldn’t reply to them. But someday I don’t have to tell anyone what I am? Because you will know about it somehow.
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