Days in and
days out.
There are
times when I feel I am of no worth. I feel like I am nobody and I keep doubting
my existence. There are times when I feel people talk to me because they have
some work from me and will leave when the work gets completed. There are days
when I just want to lie on the bed lifeless and cry my heart out. There are
days where I feel like killing myself and once and for all deleting myself from
this world. Sometimes the pain overtakes our willpower, our dreams, our
happiness, ourselves as well. But then there are days when I wake up with this
power where I can conquer the whole world. There are days where I am calmer and
still. There are days when I feel and know that I am worth whatever I am today.
This pain makes me realize I am alive; this pain gives me this unknown power or
strength to fight over it once again. I know I have tried 1000 times to kill
myself but now just once only for once I will live, the way I wanted to and
want it to. Maybe killing myself be worth but losing without trying is not my thing.
I have this zeal to be worthy enough. I'll tell the world I am not a loser,
maybe I am not the winner now but someday I will be the achiever and achieve
what I wanted to. When someone from my back asked me what I am, as my
profession I couldn’t reply to them. But someday I don’t have to tell anyone
what I am? Because you will know about it somehow.
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